fuck – Anonymously Hal

Thirty

I didn't think it would 
happen so soon, 
I swear I was just 
still using a Zune. 

I look back and see 
all the trauma and flaws, 
But also the triumphs 
that deserve an applause. 

There's memories I love 
and some that I hate, 
Yet all of them now 
I know were my fate. 

The years have gone fast 
but still seemingly slow, 
To end that rough chapter 
I needed to outgrow. 

So now here I am 
the day is arriving, 
To be thirty, still flirty, 
and continually thriving.

April 7, 2023 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: 13 Going on Thirty, :), Aging, fuck, I Feel More Sassy If Anything, Me, Meh, New Chapter, Poetry, Thirty, Zunes 22 Comments

Helpless/Hopeless

Helpless, 
she lays awake 
in the dangers 
of darkness with 
a lonely mind 
trying to rebel. 

Hopeless, 
she forces sleep 
upon herself to 
prevent the outcome 
that she knows 
all too well.

February 18, 2023 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: Bed, Forced, fuck, Lay vs. lie, Me, Melatonin vs. depression, Poetry, Sleep, Who will win? 12 Comments

Envy


Green irises 
remain fixated 
in a state of 
obscene envy. 
 
Glassy 
and glaring, 
they stare 
motionless 
and resentful. 

Absorbing the 
coveted details 
they'll never see 
when they look 
into themselves.

February 17, 2023 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: Coveted, Desires, Details, Dreams, Envy, fuck, Jealousy, Me, Poetry 7 Comments

Mind Fucked

There it is... 


The 
inevitable 
feeling 
of  
constriction 
and 
suffocation 
from 
nothing 
more 
than  
my 
own 
intrusive 
thoughts... 


I almost missed it.

August 24, 2021October 28, 2022 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: anxiety, fuck, Hardcore thinking, Me, Obsessing, Poetry

Euphoria

Feels like 
a atomic 
bomb has 
detonated inside 
my head 
causing every   
single cell 
in my 
body to 
implode so 
I can  
absorb every 
ounce of 
light and 
sound that 
surrounds me.

June 19, 2021October 28, 2022 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: Euphoria, Feelings, fuck, Mania, That come down though..., Unstoppable 16 Comments

I’m Being Honest

You're unmistakably ignorant 
and completely immature... 

So honestly I can't think of anything, 
that I like about you anymore.

June 5, 2021October 28, 2022 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: fuck, Ha, Poetry, Rhyming 1 Comment

Like Clockwork

My inadvertent pattern 
of being pursued, 
subdued, and then 
emotionally misused.

February 24, 2021October 26, 2022 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: Annoyed, Apparently..., fuck, I need to higher my expectations, Lies, Poetry 16 Comments

Rollercoaster

It's like I've 
been strapped 
back into the same 
ominous rollercoaster ride... 

And I'm grasping at another 
unreliable safety belt...

Just praying not to be lost  
in its' imminent spiral... 

But knowing I may be.

January 26, 2021October 24, 2022 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: Again, But the first time wasn't enough, fuck, I thought I learned a lesson, Oops, Poetry, Rollercoaster, Youx2 10 Comments

Distorted

My mirror must 
be defective. 

It's flimsy glass must be 
full of errors 
and deformations...  
Innocently creating ripples 
and alterations. 

That must be 
the reason why 
the girl that 
everyone sees... 

Is nowhere close 
to the same girl 
that my mirror 
shows to me.

December 17, 2020October 24, 2022 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: Also cameras, fuck, Image, Me, Mirrors suck, Poetry, Self 20 Comments

Cheerio

It’s funny to me
how quickly I became
so appealing to you…

And then just as fast…

I became as unsatisfying
as a lonely, soggy cheerio
in a bowl of old, spoiled milk.

September 11, 2020October 22, 2022 by Anonymously Hal Categories: My PoetryTags: Cereal, Friends, fuck, love, Used, You 15 Comments