1/4 Life Crisis

So… I haven’t just written and vented for awhile.
Lately it’s been hitting me more and more that I need to make a decision with my life.
The decision being “kids”.

I keep questioning my purpose in the world. Am I really meant to procreate?
Or is being childless best for my mental and physical health?

Basically I’m having a fucking quarter-life crisis on the daily at this point and I’m terrified.

One part of me loves this independent, free, and mildly careless life. I mean shit… I’m free to travel, work, and enjoy life without any real commitments (And I kind of like that.)

Another part of me is craving some sort of purpose… some sort of mark to be left on this planet… a reason to be alive…

I guess right now I’m just hopeful that time/fate decides it for me (Because I apparently can’t decide 100% either way and it pisses me off).

If anyone gets to this point of the post… thank you for being here to read my thoughts. πŸ™‚

22 thoughts on “1/4 Life Crisis

  1. My son is grown so that procreation thing is done. But I feel the same way about relationships. I’ve been single now for four years and while a part of me misses being a part of being in a relationship, the part that can come and go and do as I please is quite content.

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  2. Oh, love. I swore up and down I didn’t want to be a parent. Never wanted any kids. Mine came as a surprise, and while I miss the inependence, I have no regrets.

    You don’t have to have a child. Sometimes we strive better without certain commitments. Either way, the answer will come to you at the right time. Until then, try to breathe through the chaos as much as possible.

    It doesn’t matter how many times to compare advantages and disadvantages, it may not turn out the way you plan. You’ll figure it out in due time!

    Thinking of you ❀


  3. πŸ€”Hmm, Mark your purpose! You don’t need a baby for that. πŸ˜‰. You can still do wonders and again it’s a personal choice. Do what you love and have no regrets β˜ΊοΈπŸ‘

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  4. Don’t ever feel like you *have* to have kids if you don’t want to! As much as it sucks that you have to make the decision, it’s totally up to you. Don’t let anyone tell you what you have to do!

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  5. I feel you and can relate. Though I’m past the 1/4 crisis and now I’m having another one … and talk of children still frightens me. Hope you make the right decision for you! It’s good you’re thinking deeply on it now.

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  6. Permit my 2 cents here, stranger to stranger… I think you have already come to the wisdom, you’ve said, maybe let fate decide it. There is more wisdom within destiny than we can fathom, it works mysteriously and aesthetically. I had a life filled of adventure and exploration and trials and wonder and self-expression… and then as if it somehow made sense all along, I found myself in circumstances to become a father through adoption for the first time, at age 60. And sliding past the sheer terror of it, I come to see the amazing joy and chance to obseve close up the beautiful unfolding of another human who depends upon and places trust in me, and needs only the basics: love. Children teach us that everything is possible, in their infinite variety, and they can arrive at any point… so just live out of your innermost being. Good Luck.

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